there is a big chance that i'll just say when i got them when i hand them over
"i got these in february because they made me think of you but things were kind of weird and complicated and i didn't want to make it weirder anyway here"
even if i don't plan to say anything like that
[It's such a small, stupid thing to get hung up on. Withholding the information feels like a kind of dishonesty, and maybe that's fine. Maybe it doesn't matter. But maybe he also wants Peter to know he'd been thinking of him every damn day for months before they contracted.]
[Did he really just send that. Quick, send more so she doesn't linger on that.]
i heard people used the north star for navigation not sure it works on Mars, I never tried it but... it's the thought that counts? fuck maybe he's never heard of the north star
yeah? maybe I will i have a thing about having information withheld or being filtered so i'm trying not to do it to anyone else even if it's a rambling story about how i ended up buying these earrings
[He isn't going to leave it at that but seriously that's kind of the gist of it.]
i worked for someone i thought could change things for the better he did something for me and i was on board with what he was broadcasting and, like an idiot, i didn't even try to look behind the curtain until there were big neon signs that something wasn't right i trusted him and he was just a really good conman or maybe he wasn't that good and i just spent way too long seeing what i wanted to see
[Anyone would, right? He thinks of Ramses O'Flaherty and Peter Nureyev, two people who have withheld information from him, two people he thought he'd do anything for. One revealed themselves to be nothing but a lie and a coward and a con. And the other? The other he's desperately in love with. At least Nureyev decided to trust him, which was a mistake at the time and Juno proved that, but he's maybe decided to do it again and he is not going to fuck up this time. He's going to be open. And he really, really hopes he can get that in return.
Because even if he's been inside Nureyev's head and his memories, there is still so much he doesn't know.]
i'll try not to do that might be about stupid things but important things i won't leave you in the wind, Kathryn
One of my first missions as Captain of Voyager was tracking down a Maquis ship. Maquis are... people deeply wronged and essentially abandoned by the Federation - and Starfleet, which I am an officer in.
I succeeded and their ship along with mine was transported into a totally unknown and very distant part of space. Both ships lost a lot of their crew and their ship wasn't salvageable.
We had to find a way to integrate into one functioning crew on one ship.
For the most part, we managed, but we learned very well that evasiveness and hiding things is a terrible sign. I didn't like it before that. I like it less now.
I don't share a lot but I don't hide things and I won't hide them from you, in particular. It's a fundamental necessity of trust.
[Maybe it takes a lot of explaining, but Juno mostly follows it. At least, he fully understands the whole... integrating different crews part. How necessary trust is. How badly things can go without it. How hard it is to earn.
He misses Rita. He misses Buddy and Jett and even Vespa and everything they represented. A second chance.]
I was stepping into something like that on a much smaller scale before I got here.
I overshare and undershare. but i'm not gonna hide things
you're right, that's why i like you i mean you can also keep up with me and a bar and like fried pickles and evening gowns but I trust you not to jerk me around
[Which is maybe rich coming from him, considering he's technically the one with the power in their situation. That rarely occurs to him.]
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"i got these in february because they made me think of you but things were kind of weird and complicated and i didn't want to make it weirder anyway here"
even if i don't plan to say anything like that
[It's such a small, stupid thing to get hung up on. Withholding the information feels like a kind of dishonesty, and maybe that's fine. Maybe it doesn't matter. But maybe he also wants Peter to know he'd been thinking of him every damn day for months before they contracted.]
i'm probably over thinking this
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my mouth has gotten me into some really bad places
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Maybe the problem wasn't you.
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i cause problems
ok. i'm gonna give him the earrings next time he's over.
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would you believe i used to be worse?
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growth
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And tell me more about these earrings.
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yeah
he's got beautiful ears
[Did he really just send that. Quick, send more so she doesn't linger on that.]
i heard people used the north star for navigation
not sure it works on Mars, I never tried it
but... it's the thought that counts?
fuck maybe he's never heard of the north star
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Or explain.
I don't get a vote.
But if I did, I'd say explain it anyway.
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maybe I will
i have a thing about having information withheld
or being filtered
so i'm trying not to do it to anyone else
even if it's a rambling story about how i ended up buying these earrings
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[He isn't going to leave it at that but seriously that's kind of the gist of it.]
i worked for someone i thought could change things for the better
he did something for me and i was on board with what he was broadcasting
and, like an idiot, i didn't even try to look behind the curtain until there were big neon signs that something wasn't right
i trusted him
and he was just a really good conman
or maybe he wasn't that good and i just spent way too long seeing what i wanted to see
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why's that?
[Please can they stop talking about him.]
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[Anyone would, right? He thinks of Ramses O'Flaherty and Peter Nureyev, two people who have withheld information from him, two people he thought he'd do anything for. One revealed themselves to be nothing but a lie and a coward and a con. And the other? The other he's desperately in love with. At least Nureyev decided to trust him, which was a mistake at the time and Juno proved that, but he's maybe decided to do it again and he is not going to fuck up this time. He's going to be open. And he really, really hopes he can get that in return.
Because even if he's been inside Nureyev's head and his memories, there is still so much he doesn't know.]
i'll try not to do that
might be about stupid things
but important things
i won't leave you in the wind, Kathryn
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One of my first missions as Captain of Voyager was tracking down a Maquis ship. Maquis are... people deeply wronged and essentially abandoned by the Federation - and Starfleet, which I am an officer in.
I succeeded and their ship along with mine was transported into a totally unknown and very distant part of space. Both ships lost a lot of their crew and their ship wasn't salvageable.
We had to find a way to integrate into one functioning crew on one ship.
For the most part, we managed, but we learned very well that evasiveness and hiding things is a terrible sign. I didn't like it before that. I like it less now.
I don't share a lot but I don't hide things and I won't hide them from you, in particular. It's a fundamental necessity of trust.
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He misses Rita. He misses Buddy and Jett and even Vespa and everything they represented. A second chance.]
I was stepping into something like that on a much smaller scale before I got here.
I overshare and undershare.
but i'm not gonna hide things
you're right, that's why i like you
i mean you can also keep up with me and a bar and like fried pickles and evening gowns
but I trust you not to jerk me around
[Which is maybe rich coming from him, considering he's technically the one with the power in their situation. That rarely occurs to him.]
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